- Много са странни тия жени, бе, тате!
- Ами алтернативата е да станеш педераст
- ... Техническият на всичко туй акцент може 'се приеме за психотерапия против екзистенциалния страх. Принципът тук е на приятелското отключване: добрата дума железни врата отваря. Страхът те е напълзял, споходил те е, просмукал те е: и те е сковал. Мимикрирал те е. Но не като пред призрак. Импрегниран си, натеглен си, на'лузил си си примката, 'алката; изкушен си да се гмурнеш, пък се паникьосваш: "Не!" Уф, ни да го разрешиш, ни да не го разрешиш! Оковал те е и креташ, влачиш го със себе си както три синджира роби... Току някой иззад те потупа по рамото. "Хей, отпусни се, то е мечка, от която се не бяга", усмихва ти се той. Sunrise! Даваш назад, оттегляш се заднешком и разтваряш ръце. "Кротко, кротко..." Разширяваш се, извисяваш се; издигаш се и го увличаш призрачно страха, дзвера. Сборвате се безтегловно. И разпъва се, и усуква се: разкъсва се в чернота, съсредоточавайки те в нищо. Захвърля те на парцали, та емоционализираш, разпределяш го по време и пространство. Коагулация, средоточване. Приятел е пред теб: приятелят, когото да прегърнеш; слънцето да прегърнеш! А нея винаги има кой.
P. S.
"The thing I love the most about Lzzy Hale:
it's that she don't ever allow nobody to feel alone,
or out of space on this weird world that we all are living in"
Нечий коментар, 29 н.' 2021, Twitter
- You
have to remind yourself that everything starts and ends with you: your
depression does not define you, it is a symptom and coping mechanism
your brain clings to; but it isn't You. I
chase whatever takes me down the rabbit hole, then from there it's like
a treasure hunt; and you don't stop 'til you've collected all the
pieces and put them in order. It's
like a dance, or juggling: you have to let one part of your brain go on
autopilot; I'm thinking of about 5 different things while I'm on stage,
but I rotate/ balance them all in my head. If you do frozen cherries with vanilla yogurt, it's like ice-cream... Boxing: cuz I'd need to hit something. No
one person helped us get our big break, it was a lot of work, over 1500
shows before we got signed; and on tour, and a lot of radio DJs, club
owners, and other normal people and local fans: that gave us a chance... I
didn't go to college, went to school on and off 'til 8th grade, then
got my high school diploma early by going to classes at a community
college getting my GED. All
in all, I don't regret it: I never got the typical high school/ college
party/ social experience, but I was more interested in writing songs/
figuring out how to make this band a reality. It
would've been a distraction from that dream if I had chosen the typical
route; plus looking back, mom and dad could never have afforded college
tuition, let alone the student debt; so I think I made the right choice... My
fear/ self doubt has never really gone away, but it has become smaller;
through tiny victories over it, I've learned to overcome those feelings
one battle at a time. If it wasn't for my fears, I wouldn't appreciate my happiness... I think the only thing I would attempt now is drama/ acting classes. I know people that have degrees and work at Walmart: nothing is a guarantee. I come and go as I please, depending on where my mind is at; but it's
actually very inspiring to read/ listen to your individual journeys:
they help me understand my own, and how we are all very much the same. The
best thing I ever did was not have a plan B to fall back on; times were
hard, the boys and I had to go to the 99 cent store to buy food; I was
making our stage clothes from pieces from goodwill; but we were doing
it, we were playing shows and figuring it out, there was no choice. I keep looking on the bright side of life, cuz it only gets darker. See you tomorrow!
Lzzy Hale, 29 ноември' 2021, Twitter (link)
Въпреки фрагментарността си, стилът навява Карл Ясперс
Допълнението към статията ми "Дяволите да ни вземат", pdf: link
